Finger on the Shutter

By: Jill Finger

Apr 11 2015

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Sadness, tears, raw emotion   For the past six weeks these feelings have been a part of my daily existence.  I find myself looking for times to be alone, to give way to grief.  While in the shower or alone in the car, the tears come, sometimes out of the blue. Unexpectedly, I’ll find myself crying, not even realizing I was particularly sad at that moment, but I guess the facade just cracks, and the tears come out.  Then, I’m okay, until the next time.

I wrote some things in my journal–quotes I’d found that resonated with me.  I find myself reading and rereading them, several times a day, and they help.

Things are as they are, we suffer because we imagined different.

Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see life with a clearer view again.

Sometimes your heart needs more time to accept what your mind already knows.

There are things we don’t want to happen, but have to accept, things we don’t want to know, but have to learn and people we can’t live without, but have to let go.

Strength grows in the moments when you think you can’t go on, but you keep going anyway.

and my favorite one—

Grief is the last act of love we have to give those we loved. Where there is deep grief, there was great love.

I think I am slowly, slowly moving into the light, even as I know there are days, hours, minutes of darkness ahead.  I keep thinking, “There was great love, there was great love, there was great love..” Rest in peace, Mom, I will miss you forever.